aM i AnyThinG to U

2007-03-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

moving on to a new way of life...haha..a new link la..
http://messedup12.blogspot.com

2007-02-08T04:21:00.000+08:00

yah...i knw its been sometime i log into blogger..but i suddenly had the urge to write sumthing..
hmm..days hasnt been good..problem arising now and then..and yea after this semestral exam, im year 3...time really flies..am i going back to indo to continue my studies?or am i going to stay..can i even get into the university here..life sucks..

the time is 4.23 AM..i cant get to sleep..
what shld i do..i hate myself sumtimes... being the opposite of wat u are might be good at times..
i really wish i can change everything..is it too late now? will i disappoint the ppl around me?

i wish im still a child..living life without worries..

2006-10-15T04:20:00.000+08:00

yah..watever..i treat my parents very badly..thats wat they think..and my brother is the one they love..blah blah..stupid shit..my parents just dun biliv me anymore..fuck off!!
u suck..
dammit...its not like i dun do wat u wan me to do..sumtimes i just wan to do my own stuff..but u never let me..to think u always say those nice stuffs..yucks.

2006-08-15T04:34:00.000+08:00

2dae's the 2nd day she is working..
hmmm.it gets kinda boring when she goes to work..
games are 1 way to kill time..but games get boring after sometime.
volleyball?another good way..but without her presence.it feel as tho sumthing's missing.
been talking very little with her..
miss the days i play with her.talk with her.
its like...............................................................
i miss u! =P

I BLOG LIAO HOR..WAHAHA..U OSO MUST BLOG HOR!!
anw.jiayou!!the work only 2 weeks..go go go!!=)
thx dar.

2006-08-09T03:41:00.000+08:00

its bad to remind me that everything's fine all these while..
u said u wanna meet me before going for vball.
u went online,i msged u
u nvr reply.took u about an hour or so to reply me.
found out that u playing audition.
u say when i play game i dun care about u.u tell me if i dun,
will i keep nudging u for one whole hour while playing my game??
who is the one who didnt care about the other??
u chose to play ur game instead of telling me when and where to meet.
its so obvious that u treat it more importantly than me.
if u dun care
why shld i care.

2006-03-01T00:51:00.000+08:00

another post of mine .
its been fine all this while only until my parents came to singapore.
thanks to my big mouthed aunt,
my parents got to know everything about me and her.
they started to nag.
im really getting sick of it.
everything i do, they wan me to be so perfect.i just dunno why.
why do i have to listen to every single thing that they have to say.
i have my own thoughts too.
reading my smses without my consent is bad enuff.
i just didnt wan to say it out, i didnt wan to embarrass her.

the problem is why cant a 17 year old be in a relationship?
must i like wait till 30 or 40 years old then i have relationships?
argh..
please put urself in my shoe mum.dad.
when it comes, it cant be controlled..
do u ever understand? haiz.........................................................................................................

life is never good for ppl.
it would be good if this ends.sigh.

2006-02-21T03:05:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since ive blogged...
now i think blog is the only place i can vent all my anger, m hatred at...
im sorry blogger..

i cant fall asleep..
having to toss and turn on the bed for awhile..
my mind just wun let itself rest..

wthescu,
swjcoltma,
htiwbfaa.
ymiu, m, nhyttcm.
cccccciaucd...
DAMMIT..
ilytseaihufsr..
igjtebilytm,
uatottiwaly,
ihtobunobaft.
ynlhtbaggf,
yatsomahhtyutb.
yjdwtdatys.
ynkhtsac,
cwyfimalma.
tsgoy.
nyhmmhy.

i feel much better now..but i still cant sleep..
i hate myself.
a messeduppieceofshit isnt worthed being cared for..as it is always a messedup shit.
dont bother asking me wat all those shits mean..i will never remember it anymore..

2006-02-04T13:57:00.000+08:00

okay practically 2dae is a bad day..
Fucking neighbour invited the lion dance thing to their house..
just simply disturbed me from my sleep..
took them about 30 mins to STOP.. dammit..

had to wake up and get ready..
went downstairs and for the 1st time lunch isnt ready..(its 12 pm already)
went to my room to play my game while waiting..
but. the server was down.for like until now..
didnt play a SINGLE BIT.
the maid took one fucking hour just to cook some simple food.
it was late,
1 pm..
i rushed my food so that i could prepare and meet her.
went to bathe..

im back to my room and i saw this msn msg.it was hers.
talked to her for awhile and all her replies were just one word answers..
ok its fine.
logged off and changed.
went to look for my shoe..its was freaking wet..
i dont knw wat the hell is wrong with the maid.
its a new shoe, why the hell did she bother to wash it..while my old shoe isnt washed..
god dammit..
watever..
just let me go back to sleep..
i need rest.

2006-01-22T02:04:00.000+08:00

superglue.

2 diff puppet,
made in indonesia,
made from wood,
made in singapore,
made from plastic,
passion for balls,
saturday morning fever..
strings attached,
string got too tight,
it broke..
they are now superglued....

2006-01-07T16:26:00.000+08:00

it's michelle here helping denny to blog.
he's far too lazy to blog and so michelle to the rescue.
we're now in khatib macdonald.
supposingly i am responsible for doing my powerpoint presentation slides.
and denny to study for his common test.
but don't know why we are blogging.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

we just finish eating 9 piece nugget.
woooh. nice.
but this place is like freezing cold.
i think we're gonna have our own snow city in khatib mac.
potential snow city place here.
everybody is like : "why the hell is this place so freezing"
and those who came here to study wore jacket.
cool ar.
denny and me got only one jacket.
and ular-lah~~
how are we gonna keep 2 people warm with one jacket?
wahaha.

alright.
i think denny's personally blogged post are not longer than my this post.
to keep him from a certain degree of embarassment.
i shall stop here.

adios to the mighty michelle whos blogged for the weakling denny.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2005-12-26T04:27:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
i love christmas in singapore....really..
first christmas in singapore,
i spent it with my dearest...
went around spraying snow shits at ppl...was real fun..
saw few ppl chasing banglas..
they were shouting "banglas!!!!C** b**!!"
haha..
real funny..
loved the time with her..
oya!we watched king kong at 1.20 am...
nice movie!!but a lil bit too long..butt got cramp...haha...
anw i will wan to celebrate more of these events!!real fun...love ya lots dear....
**ure the greatest thing i would live for...=D

2005-12-18T01:07:00.000+08:00

nobody's perfect..i know..
even the person u love the most,
the one closest to u, isnt perfect...i know..

detest my mouth, or maybe...
my brain...
i just have this tendency of lying even tho i knw of the consequences..
my brain's just too fast to react in terms of lying..
issit a good thing?or a bad thing?
i cant help it, im too used to it...

making me not as trustworthy as i used to be..
can never be...anymore...TRUST is always important...
i know..im sorry...

*i understand that im never trustable...so shut me up.
*i found out alot of things in this world are free.

2005-12-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

everybody fighting with time.
12 months a year.
30 days a month.
24 hrs a day.
60 mins an hour.
60 seconds a minute.
but never enough....

how i wished all these could be extended..
maybe 100 hours a day??haha..im just being stupid..
wished i could spend the whole day just being with my dear..
why are we so far apart...just unlucky...hurhur...
anw..we're doing very fine..=D
loves my dear to the max..=x..

2005-12-09T01:01:00.001+08:00

lala...its december!!!and guess wat...chrismast is just around the corner!!!
lalalalalala....
i wish myself a merry chrismast.
i wish myself a merry chrismast..
ans a happyyyyyyyyyyyy new year!!=P

this is the 1st time im celevrating chrismast in singapore??i think...haha..so fun!!!!lalala...
alrite...xmas wishes coming up...>.<
1. YOU and me to be together always (forever!!)...love ya.=DD
2. my lego bricks!!! think toysrus is having a xmas sale now...buy for me legos!!!>.<
3. my vball skills to improve !!i wanna play in the sch team next year...
4. new handphone!!!argh...buy me a nice nice phone....plsss..sumone..=x
5. have better results at the end of this semester...
6. EVERYONE to be happy always!!!=DD

lalala...i wan LEGO LEGO LEGO LEGO LEGO LEGO LEGO LEGO!!!!!!=P

2005-12-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

2005-12-07T00:37:00.001+08:00

hold u in my arms..
as we waited for the clock to tick [23 00]..
there i was hoping that time would go slower..MUCH slower..
he was naughty..20 mins flew by DAMN quickly...argh
help me!!!im in a state of madness..
hate every moment of farewell..
i wish we could be together always...=D

2005-11-27T13:30:00.000+08:00

up or down..
left or right..
north or south..
east or west..
yes or no..

choices u have to make in ur life..
Sometimes being the best isn't the best after all..
i dunno wat shld i do now!!!!help me...

2005-11-13T00:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm..
a short short short update..

real lazy to type now....hehe.

hmm..anw..school started on monday,7th nov............
isnt as great as i thought it would be...
it's as if sumthing's very different from it used to be..
joshua oso said so..its different from how school used to be..
nothing can be done now..its decided like this and yeap..no change can be made..
thats for school..
hmmmmmmmm..as for vball..i think ive got fatique from all the frequent playing.
i like to play vball..but my body isnt really cooperating..gets tired quite easily now..im not sure why...MAYBE IM FAT!!!!
hmmmm..things not regarding vball and school have been happening..quite sure of it now..jus hope everything goes fine...nothing shall interfere! but ur answer will always be a dunno..sigh

2005-10-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

the one and onlypost im posting in indonesia...

am now in airport..in some kind of lounge using the free internet thing..wahaha..free foods, free drinks..blah blah..

hmmm..will be back in singapore soon...but but..will be flying off to china the next morning...haha...will be back before school starts...hmm..hope can find lots of nice stuffs in china..will buy sum stuffs back ..(if i can find )

wahahaha...alrite la..stop here..

2005-10-21T04:08:00.000+08:00

terminal 2
EK0348
1805

2005-10-21T02:20:00.000+08:00

the journey home wasnt as lonely as ever....
the chewing, the notorious flip-flaps of my sandals, plus all the night animals...
my brain couldnt stop working...
every single person that have made my life much much more wonderful,i thought..
the very best frens ever..
Ben, Zt, JJ, anliang...(u guys really rock alot, altho there have been much misunderstandings..love u guys to the bits)
4G classmates...esp edmund, junkwang...(have had much fun been with u guys..the soccer, the defiancy, the craziness!!haha..bestest class ever!!!!enjoyed every single day with u all)
VBALL PEEPS!!!let me name all of you..
the 4 brothers - andrew(ure always the 1st one i think of when talking bout 4 bro.closest to me among them.i love u..muacksss..=x)
adrian(bestest guy ive ever came across..very very nice guy)
weekiat(the LAMEST guy ever...haha)
alex(the guy who really can fight with "mao"haha)
3 OPSS girls - michelle!(lots and lots about you..cant write them all here..=p)yawen(the cutest human being ive ever came across..really..)
shues(the only one who isnt from nyp..haha..nice girl tho)
the others - vivian(the model of the team...lots of action when playing vball..=x.and my god-sis too..)
mata(police!!haha..ure one huge guy who can be easily bullied..=x)
yanwei(my god-brudda..the one who teached me lots bout vball)

haiz...time really flies...i dunno if this will be the last day im in singapore..depend on my parents...
sometimes i really hope ive been a local..so much better so much more fun...lots of restrictions being foreigner...i hate it...its unfair!!!
juz hope i can can can can can come back.....until next time...

2005-10-16T03:24:00.000+08:00

this had been the best week ever...so i thought....

so so busy with my life + vball in this week that i havent had dinner at home for even once...ive been missing the 7oclock shows...9 oclock shows that i used to watch during my dinner...ohhh..my aunt, my grandma been nagging..wanting me to eat dinner at home...hmmm..guess i needa stop going out for awhile, be good and stay at home...=D

its been good going out...i dunno wat i should do next...we were supposed to be "this way" but ended up getting on "that way"..u know wat i mean??
thx for ur time anw..u knw who u are...

2005-10-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

2005-10-02T14:02:00.000+08:00

went to vivian's bdae bbq...stayed over at her house...the few usual vball peeps[yanxi, weekiat, andrew, michelle, yawen,mata] were there too....mata didnt stay over...

had a really memorable time there...we were talking in vivi's room when ppl fell asleep 1 by 1...
weekiat was singing instead of sleeping lar...he started waking ppl up at 5 am...god dammit..ppl were damn fucked up then..sumhow..andrew hit him on the head and guess wat....

his freaking ear stud went into his EAR!!!u guys might not believe it but it's freaking true...IT GOT STUCK INSIDE!!!!ugh...couldnt get it out ourselves....no choice but to go to hospital...TTSH A&E department summore...

A&E real sucked...we waited for freaking 4 hours juz to get that ear stud out!!!arghh...we all were like sleeping in the waiting hall like nobody's business...

freaked out...went to have breakfast/lunch at novena square and off for home...i need sleep!
*RETRIBUTION..

2005-10-01T01:48:00.000+08:00

its 1.48 am in the morning...
spending the time alone in my room..
facing the dying computer monitor..
swaying my hands around the keyboard as the fingers look for alphabets..
here i am typing.......

w-w-w-.-f-r-i-e-n-d-s-t-e-r-.-c-o-m
i typed...

held the mouse in my hand..
moving the cursor towards the "bookmark" section
clickie....

there it was...
clickie.....
and as usual..i would go on towards the pictures section...
it's been awhile since i have looked at them...

then i realised..
how much i miss her...

altho the outcome wasnt wat i expected..
will always treasure the friendship..
*she will be loved

2005-09-27T03:34:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder....
wats the real purpose living in this cruel world...
where there is no fairness...
things wun always go ur way.....

there are times when u knw u cant live without that person..
i know mine...
ive tried and given up...
for i know she will be happier with sumone else..i hope..

im missing the days before...
days that i will never have the chance to try again...
that paticular person will always be in me no matter wat happens...
*u will be missed.......

2005-09-22T12:50:00.000+08:00

HOORAY....EXAM'S OVER!!!!
sumone remind me that its holiday already!!!wahaha...

2005-09-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

hmm..my uncle's in the hospital for 2 days already..hope he can recover asap..i really am beginning to miss his craps..the whole house seem to be missing sumone and that is him...anw he's down with dengue fever...peeps becareful of mosquitoes!!
2ml is the last paper...maths..dun feel like studying for it cos im so so so lazy already..
sumbody help me!!!!
*ifonlysumonewouldbebymyside

2005-09-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

exam period really sucked!!!argh..i cant take it anymore..been sleeping VERY late...stressing about stuffs that i needa study...argh...dammit..pimples been growing and growing no-stop..HELP ME...arrgh..plus plus being on the phone for a long period of time, adding to the stress on my face...awww...
ARGH...never been so stressed out before...thx to those vball ppl whom ive been confrencing with..talking about the chalet and of course other stuffs too..my face is really ruined now..wahaha..anw needa thank them for being so nice always..
hmm..i really needa sleep early...looking forward to the training on wednesday.(oh gawd issit spelled this way?)damn...my english really is deproving like hell..
ahhh...who gives a damn about it..nobody cares bout me now anyway..
sigh..tagboard more conjested than ever..even sum stranger come to tag..but sumthing's still missing..
*iwilneverbemyself.

2005-09-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

the love for vball came in at the right time..really...
having busy with vball stuffs really make me forget about things that i dun wan to remember...
i wanna thank joshua for being the one to pull me into vball..i juz hope he can go for more trainings and there u go..im sure he will be in the team in no time...
met really alot of nice people during the training...yanwei for being my 'big brudda'..the 4 bruddas for being so lame, always..the 3 OPSS 'flowers' for showing me their enthusiasm for vball...and the others for being so fun to be with..not forgetting 'mata' for being such a funny guy..
really looking forward to every training.....esp the upcoming chalet..juz hoping that i, myself can go...and of cos everyone to go too..
EC exam is 2ml and i think i can do well..juz hope the paper will be easy enough...wish me luck!!wahaha..
*hatenights

2005-09-17T19:12:00.000+08:00

i canot understand wat is happening to me...
i feel as though im another person..
i act otherwise, think otherwise..
am so different from wat i used to be...

anyway..exam's on monday and im not prepared yet...i still dun understand anything about it...hope i can study 2ml...

*sigh.watishappening

2005-09-16T00:47:00.000+08:00

haiz..i really dun understand human being at all...
im juz too naive to believe that people are as good as wat they show infront of u...
never thought humans are very unpredictable...i try my best not to offend ppl..juz hope no one hates me...if ive done anything wrong to anyone...i really wanna say sorry...

people around me having lots of problems nowadays...i juz dunno how to show my concern or even solve it....i wished i could be a god that can solve every problem on earth..

u see ....when problem araises between ur frens...that will be the worse thing to happen ever...i juz dunno who to side or how to solve it...both will always have their own saying...HELP ME!!!
i dun wan anything to happen!!!
*feelsostressed..

2005-09-15T16:13:00.000+08:00

one exam down...its 2 more to go...relax for the time being..wahaha..2ml start studying again...
went to amk kbox with eugene pipat and xueyi to singsong..sang real bad..the place was damn cold oso lar...anw thats all for now...going training later...ciao.

2005-09-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

NO TIME TO BLOG!!!LATER 8.30 DE SEMESTRAL EXAM START!!!ARGH...SCARED..
BASICALLY SPENT MY DAY STUDYING + ABIT PLAY PLAY...WAHAHA..CIAO.

2005-09-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

hmm..woke up kinda early today...went to skul together with saiful...reached skul quite early..
this day marks the chioing period of studying...i needa study!!really..the exam is like on thursday..and im not very good at my subject yet...BUCK UP!!!next week's test gonna be more difficult...study all the way!!
anw juz now went to pipat house there study..he kinda like got a tutor to teach us...he was alright..better than nothing yea??understood quite alot of stuff already...was kinda tough understanding tho...starting to feel scared..afraid that i would do badly for my exam..there's so much to study!!hope she learnt alot juz now..im sorry i cant be a good tutor..i'll try my best.

kinda tired now..gonna go sleep soon..
*precioustimethatiwouldneverforget.

2005-09-13T01:04:00.000+08:00

a small puppy....a cute and adorable one..
can be attractive to many...
it is being adopted by a small girl...
life was so meaningful...
being fed, being cared, being loved..

but one day..the girl got bored of the puppy..
it was left in the dark with no one to care for...
it tried to go back to that girl..
sadly, she didnt give a damn about the puppy anymore..
dumped a side..

now it's alone and sad..

u see how bad can these puppies get??
if u really wan to have a pet..be sure u take care of it!!
i really hate those ppl who adopt them, love them for awhile and dump the puppies aside when they get bored...
irresponsible owners...FUCK OFF..

2005-09-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

revised a lil bit of DE when i woke up..
went to skul at 6...cant play vball cos it was raining ar...waited till 8plusplus then we can play..
problemssssssss...
--sum arguments here and there...haiz..hope it will be okay soon...
--argh..sum stuff i am experiencing again..i really hate this now...hope nothing much will happen..
--haiz...did i do sumthing wrong??im afraid i did...
--am i really fated to have this kinda life??i kinda hate it in sum way...
--im afraid sumthing bad might happen if i say it out...
*ifonlyicanpredictthefuture.

2005-09-12T02:46:00.000+08:00

PHEW....got my skin back finally...i still like the older one cos i feel that sumthing is still missing over here...hmm..anw to those ppl whom i havent linked pls leave ur webbie so that i can link u again...thx..

hmm...went for dinner to celebrate my grandmother's 68th bdae.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!..
did noth else other than that 2dae....gtg sleep soon..byee
*missingyou..

2005-09-10T18:48:00.000+08:00

friday...
wake up early in the morning to go kbox with the vballers...this time with adrian andrew alex weekiat michelle shuchen vivian...hmmto bad yanwai canot come..wahahah....had a great time...
weeki and mic sing 制造浪漫 really very nice!!!..
hmm..then had indoor training...wahaha..bestest training ever!!ha...hope to improve as fast as possible ar.....went to bathe at edmund house after training...the go mac eat eat then sit there talk till next morning..waha..go home sleep till 3 olcock then wake up...
hmm..juz found out sumthing shuchen michelle and yawen been keeping ar...so hmm..its hard to lose sucha precious player...anw..mata adrian weekiat and me will help her de!! wahaha..hope everything goes fine lar..
for those ppl who been asking me about the 933 dedication thingy...
i dunno how to dedicate songs there lar..so that canot be me...hah.wonder who's that other denny or danny...and who's that other xueyi or shue yi or shue ee or wat..
*wishicouldspendmoretimewithu

2005-09-08T19:17:00.000+08:00

GOD DAMMIT...how unluncky can i really get...
losing the codes of my blog template really pisses me off..i really dunno wat to do now..i guess i will be using this skin for the time being..until i get one new skin up...who the hell erased my blog template codes!!!!now i lose my tagboard codes..my links..

I WAN MY TAGBOARD BACK....whoever erased my codes..i wanna say this to u....FUCK OFF...
*realpissed.

2005-09-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

AGAIN...i wanted to reach skul by 8...but i ONLI LEFT HOME AT 8....DAMMIT....when can i ever wake up early...
hmm...was too tired to listen to jack tan lecture..so fell asleep..skul ended at like 10am...still early..went to eat then went back lecture theatre to "study"...hmm...stayed till 12.45 and i went off..went to woodlands to study with xueyi and eugene..time passed real fast..after like awhile then its 6 oclock already...went to party world to K....AGAIN...ha..pipat and sum other peeps came later...10.30 came real fast...time to go home!!
hmm..needa study a lil stuff then im off to sleep...
*hopetmltestwouldbeeasyenough..

2005-09-07T00:16:00.000+08:00

hmm...wanted to reach skul at 8 but ended up waking up at 8.15...then reach skul onli at 9 plus...late for maths lecture...attended a "less than an hour lecture"..then skul ended..DAMMIT..

hmm..went to mac to eat breakfast...then met vball peeps at 11..yanwei went off at 11.30..say he send his gf home then come back in 30 mins time..so i went off to help her do the pcb board thing...did till bout 2 plus..hmm..canot really explain how i felt when the bell really worked..ha..seeing her so happy juz makes me fly...DING DONG!!=x
went kbox after that..with yanwei, adrian, weekiat, michelle and yawen....
sing sing sing
reach home at 10 pm...yeaps..thats all..=)

2005-09-06T01:31:00.000+08:00

monday's like wasted....onli woke up at 2...i slept for like 12 hrs juz nice...
woke up..then thought it was so late already so nvr go skul....hmm...then went on CMS for awhile to read up a lil stuff about DE..5 mins and i finished...wasnt in the mood..
then turned on my webcam...FOUND OUT ITS SPOILED..die...i gonna get it from my daddy...DIE DIE DIE...how how how help me help me....
am going to skul early 2ml..8 am??to get the tips from jack tan..wahaha..
hmm..sleep early!!
*youwillalwaysbe..

2005-09-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

weekends are over...slept at like 8plus on saturday...was very tired..woke up at 10 plus on sunday..then watched superstar repeat...1 pm go eat lunch then went back to sleep..was very tired...woke up again at 5plus...
had lots of sleep this weekend..been long since ive been sleeping so much...i think i needa go sleep soon..its 1 am now...i think im getting sick..this virus is like spreading...poly mates sick...i will be next...hope i wun...
thursday's common test...needa study for it already...think 2ml go skul study with saiful and his class ppl...hope she will start studying...and dun fail again..i really wish she can do better this time...

2005-09-03T00:13:00.000+08:00

back blogging again...
for once vball training got ruined...the sky didnt stop crying even after bout 4 hrs...DAMN...the court was wet...hated it..didnt do anything much then..played matches only...'mata' was kinda like pissed..dun really know why oso...yellow ribbon project 2ml..needa wake up early..sucks..

tests are coming real soon..needa start studying already...
*hersmile,mydrug

2005-09-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm...posts have been onli coming once every few days...haha..the main reason being that there arent many interesting things happening....sigh.

still have the hopes of seeing her smiles, listening to her laughs and the noise she makes in lecture theatre...its more than enough..still with the same old thinking..juz that ive learnt to see it in another way..

anw...yesterday went for teacher's day celebration at mshs..saw lots of familiar faces...the memoriess...all start flowing in...

they came to my house after that....went to buy stuff then go bbq at pasir ris...hate that place...the bbq pit was swarmed by ants and cats...didnt eat much..I DIDNT GET TO EAT ANY CHICKEN WING!!!!hur hur...talked thru the night...didnt get to sleep a wink...onli did on our journey home...rested awhile and off to skul already...slept thru the whole 2hr os maths lecture...got a slight headache then...

HAHA..guess wat..i cant draw a straight line 2day!!i really need sleep!!
*hopeitsreallytrue

2005-08-29T00:17:00.000+08:00

it's the moments we shared
it's the fun we had
it's the times we haf
it's wad we both missed
but still we remain the same
dreamers as we are
dreams beyond the wildest dream
and no
we ain't bad
dun look at us tat way
we're onli seventeen

so hard to be a nice guy
harder when the cat dun acknowledges it
but still we are
the nice guys tat we always are

wahaha..by edmund...about the 2 of us??lol..nice time talking with ya!!.

2005-08-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

hmm..juz woke up and juz finished eating my lunch...had 15 hrs of sleep after going without sleep for 2 days...feeling drained+down...
had training at friday night...was kinda slack then..wasnt feeling too tired..so went out with edmund after training...jun kwang was supposed to come along..but his parents didnt allow him to...
went to a eat dim sum..then go a playground nearby..talked about almost everything...felt so much better after letting my heart out..if only ive got a time-machine..haha..2 things i would do...
went home to rest at bout 6 plus...then left home at 9...training again...slack but weather was bad...im so dark now...wahaha...reached home at 3..rested for awhile then went off to my cousin's 21 bdae...kinda fun but i was TIRED..went home early and there u find me sleeping like a dead log..haha...
*hoping"hopewecouldbelikethisforever"tocome.

2005-08-27T07:28:00.000+08:00

now's 7.28 am.....
went out for the whole night..juz reached home.waha.going to skul for training later... blog again when im back...havent had my sleep ................................

2005-08-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm..juz realised i havent been blooggin..wahaha..been busy with my project and stuff...
anyway.. juz simple un-happening life...have been going for alot of vball training nowadays..i wan to imrove quickly!!!i wan my spike to be perfect!!
hmm..juz had my PD presentation 2dae...i dun wan to wear formal attire anymore!!!haha..was quite fun tho..hmm yeap..=)))
i think my presentation sucked..did a VERY boring topic....sigh...anyway juz a pass will do...i wil never wan to repeat PD anymore...
got another vball training 2ml..haiz..my life now kinda consists of vball vball vball, daytona daytona, school, and music...would get quite boring sumtimes...oya...kbox after training..wahaha 3am...think i will be so tired that i fall asleep in the room...why liddat!?!?

2005-08-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

im sorry that ive been so selfish all these times....
never have i put myself in ur shoes....
i really have understood...
thank you..for even trying....
guess im juz not fated to be the one....
i will never wan to forget the old times...=)
i love u...always will have a place in my heart..

2005-08-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

很想你

你在那里这些年来如意不如意还快乐
还单纯还美丽时光如何对你

我在这里人海中一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你你知道吗
如果可以就让我再见你
美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毁了我一个而已

我很想你听见了吗 woo...
这是唯一我无解的困境
那些过去不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人只能叹息都不是你

我在那里你会不会偶尔好奇
有没有曾经怀疑
我说我会忘记只是种好意
都不是你我只想爱你

2005-08-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

NO MOOD TO BLOG....
**********************

2005-08-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

another meaningless day....
i wonder when this will ever end...
i hoped that i could forget..
but i dun think i can...im juz lying to myself..
i wished to be the one to pull you down..
but that juz will never happen...
*haiz.

2005-08-21T14:57:00.000+08:00

i wished that miracle could happen...
for now that i realised it will never happen again...
i wanna tell u that...
no matter what happens...
i will always be there for you..
*icantstop.

learn to treasure what u have...
before its gone...
cos u will never know what will happen...
*canttakemyselfaway..

2005-08-21T02:16:00.000+08:00

野百合也有春天 (电影"野雀高飞"插曲)

曲：罗大佑词：罗大佑编：陈志远
仿佛如同一场梦我们如此短暂的相逢你像一阵春风轻轻柔柔吹入我心中而今何处是你往日的笑容记忆中那样熟悉的笑容你可知道我爱你想你怨你念你深情永不变难道你不曾回头想想昨日的誓
言就算你留恋开放在水中娇艳的水仙别忘了山谷里寂寞的角落里野百合也有春天

hmm..slept thru the whole morning again..no training 2dae..woke up onli at 3 oclock...
havent been able to sleep at night...can onli sleep when im real tired..which is usually at 3 or 4 am....im still energetic now...ive been awake for onli 11 hrs!!!darn...i think im going to lie on my bed after i finish this...
nth much actually...only that my old computer is getting very irritating...i reformatted it...to think it was alright later.....
but in the end sum idiotic spyware got into it....and the windows activation thing isnt going fine...i want to kill that computer...argh....
anw..i need sumone to lend me a windows xp pro installation cd......anyonw who has it lend me pls....
i still canot get over it!!i still think of her at times...why cant i juz let it go....
*旧的不去,新的不来

2005-08-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

sigh...and its friday now...its like time passes real fast...
its 20th august already...its almost 3 months since i stepped into NYP...
meaningful part of my life...
i want to grow up...i want to be caring...i want to be more mature...
im juz way too childish...too naive...too boring to be with...
i want to change..i want to be perfect..i wan to be good towards her..and everyone too!
i hate myself..
sigh
*putting a brave front..

2005-08-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

how DUMB can i really get....
2dae's 1009 elq and 1010 lecture were actually cancelled..left with a math lecture and a goddamn boring PD lesson..i really canot understand why on earth did i go to school for...
went to skul had boring lessons...blah blah..anw juz dun feel like talking bout skul now...
lectures have been so dead so empty these few days...or maybe lacking of sumone's voice...
ive been sucha rude person ever since....dunno wat has got into me...foul languages juz flow out of my mouth continuously...been complaining complaining and complaining...a change in me??
have been wanting to talk to her..but feeling sumthing obstructing...ahhh!!
*when i start to think of the beginning....

2005-08-18T00:22:00.000+08:00

hmm..didnt really have a good day in skul..cos i didnt bring any books to skul..so didnt really know wat was going on...hmm..that guy still havent brought the thumbdrive to skul..KILL HIM if he doesnt bring 2ml again...wahha.kidding...
juz downloaded this "DTXmania" thing..its like the drum mania in arcade..i wanna buy an electronic drumset now..i wanna play!!!lol..spent very long time on that stupud game..wahaha..kinda fun tho..im gonna master it..then go arcade haolian...=x...kidding...
after so long long time..2dae was the 1st time she came to my seat to call me...hmmm..anw didnt really talked to her after that...think im gonna fall sick again...my throat is very pain and itchy..blahh who cares..
*leave it behind...tryin to..

2005-08-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

take me away...
away from this world of mine...
somewhere faraway...
a place that is full of joy...
so that i can...
forget about all the wrongs that ive done...

wat if...
i were socially inept...
no worries, no stress, no idea of wat sad is...
living each day with full of joy...
wouldnt it be better??

art...
a way of expressing one's feeling
high quality of conception or execution, as found in works of beauty; aesthetic value
if onli i could draw...
i would draw a heart with butterflies..
i would draw a heart with stabbing knifes..

2005-08-16T20:33:00.000+08:00

damn..im starting to hate tuesdays even more...1st was because of useless lectures by jack tan...then his useless tutorial...and now im beginning to hate maths tutorials too...fucked up tutor...irritating laughs, act cute shits.....for god's sake, she doesnt know how to teach at all...and to think she can teach in a poly!!wow...1stly she was damn "guai lan" when we asked for our common test result 2dae...then idiotic, lame and useless method of teaching...3rdly, when sumone tries to ask a question..her answer would be "practise lo, hehe" or "think yourself lo, hehe"always with that irritating laugh of hers...DAMMIT..how do u practise if u dun understand the topic in the 1st place??and if we can think ourselves and understand whats in the textbook then why would the school need tutors or lecturers???
sumone sack her please...
*fucked up+worried

2005-08-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

juz finished watching tv...there's this very nice korean show on channel u..very touchingg..
hmm..its about a family...father mother son and daughter...husband is a gambler i think..wife is a celebrity..dunno wat happen then father got into jail..then mother found another man outside..a rich one...she left the 2 kids at home...when husband got out of prison and found out the truth, he asked the 2 child to follow his mum so that they can have life..but he showed to harsh side of him..forcing them to go with their mother...sister was very happy while the brother was very sad..
the whole thing is DAMN touching...i juz canot put them into words...lol..my english lousy..anw..i really liked the show...

went to skul 2dae...had a short day..then went to funland to play daytona..i wanna learn the expert one!!!!darn...hah..nothing to do now...getting kinda bored..
*waitingg.

2005-08-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

dun really have much to blog nowadays...its boring and more boring days...i juz canot stand this kinda life..spending each every single second of my life thinking about her now....call me a loser if u wan..
what is not urs will not be urs
what is urs will be urs..even if u try to escape oso no use...
blah blah...still missing her...

2005-08-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

life has never been so empty..
seeing familiar faces walking shoulder to shoulder with his partner would make me feel so jealous...so envious..its so good to be loved and to love...
and again..i slept thru the whole morning..onli to take up at 3.30 pm...hav been sleeping very late these few days...ate my lunch and went out with my cousee family to compass point..my small cousee's got haircut..and we went for our dinner..
weekend can never be so boring...we were fated to meet each other....but arent fated enuff to be together...how true..
*missing u..

2005-08-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

i thought i got it over with...i thought i could move on...i thought being frens will be juz as nice...i was juz being stupid...i was juz lying to myself...maybe this is wat retribution is all about...
people told me ive changed...even thru msn..ppl could see i changed..did i??or are they juz lying to me...it hasnt been the greatest when im alone..it aches...
would feel so much better after writing watever feelings that ive.....issit really so hard to get over sum things??
watched project superstar..silver is out..even derrick is out too..
derrick was very sad...esp when he sang that song!!dammit..that song reminded me of her.....why!!?!?maybe she got sumoneelse in her heart..all i can do now is juz to wish her all the best for all watever that she do...
i miss her alot...how i wish..

2005-08-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

first thing i thought when i woke up today...
will be having lectures today..so will get to meet her..so happy..wahaha..=x
anw woke up at 7.30....reached skul onli at like 8.30...was late..but who cares...it was jack tan's lecture anyway...as usual i slept thru lessons..had PCQ test 2dae...was like copying the whole thing..so heck care..
anw skul wasnt as interesting..so skip it..went to play daytona later...wahaha..thanks to xingloong, joshua, and huaili...i had a great time...then went to find junkwang, elson and xing long(another guy with the same name) wahaha...yea..went to eat dinner then talked bout lots of stuff..didnt knw we would hav so much to talk about...yes junkwang.. this is the kind of outings i wan to have always...juz to go out talk craps...now u start to understand why i like go out so much...anw its late..gotta go sleep soon...
*nites..maybe its better this way

2005-08-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

yeap i juz got up..slept for like 14 hrs..found out it was 3 olcock when i wake up...guess iwas juz tired..havent really had a good sleep these few days..im very energetic now..wahaha..skipped breakfast...and how bout lunch..waha..lazy to go out and eat..maybe i will juz go get sumthing to bite later...my neck still hurt after that vball training incident..i hooked my self onto the net string while trying to reach out for the ball..how clever...wahahha..now there is a bruise on my neck...sum ppl even asked whether i tried to hang myself...wahaha..how stupid...dunno shld i go for a checkup or stuff..it kinda still hurt after 4 days??
dun really have any plan for the day...the previous plan was canceled..so gonna stay at home for the day..and rest..wahaha.
*forever missing you

2005-08-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

HOW UNLUCKY CAN I GET.....DAMMIT...
"i saw you"...she smsed me these 3 words and i was like WAT THE FUCK...she was juz nearby me i guess...why didnt i get to see her!!!!!GODDAMMIT...now i hate myself to the core...from 2dae onwards i gonna open my eyes and look out for people...i SWEAR..
didnt go to skul 2dae cos i going for the wilber pan concert thing...and i was forced to wear orange becos im going in with the fan club members and their so called "uniform" is orange..dammit..didnt really wan to wear orange actually...i hate orange now..so yea..juz reached home and am regretting...DAMMIT

2005-08-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

didnt update yesterday...so gonna give a short brief about wat happened yesterday...
woke up in the morning to go for training...bad day bad weather for training...
and sumthing damn stupid happened...
went to cut my hair after training...its kinda short...argh dammit..wahaha..

2005-08-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

a hug can show u wat care means...
a hug can show u wat love means...
a hug makes u feel so secured...
sigh.

mummy...i miss ur hugs..ur kisses..
daddy...i miss ur care for me..

thank you for bringing me up this 17 ++ years...
sorry for all ive done that made u worry..made u sad...
how i wish u could be by my side now...

2005-08-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

been out for almost the whole day...i juz cant seem to stay at home..really canot take it...hehe
woke up at like 10 plus..then went to find my group members to do sumthing to the prototype ...found lots of BIG problems...now i understand why jack tan gave us that kind of question...
"this idea is great..but ARE u sure u can make the prototype?"
wahaha..understand him now...it isnt as easy as we thought..?DAMMIT...haa
reached home at about 4 plus..then went out again at about 5...went to ang mo kio to find my frens...go play arcade daytona!!wahaha..then went to eat and talk talk...

for like the 1st time in my life..im starting to find games boring...i would rather go out than to stay at home to play game...wahaha....
.HELPP..aha..i seriously need a new phone!! i wan motorola razr V3!!!!argh..or maybe a phone with a better camera.........DAMMIT
*wishing wishes..=x

2005-08-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

why muz i be sent over to singapore.....i hate u mum!!i hate u!!!!!!!!
now i really understand why did i get into it.............
yes i totally understand it now...i lack of wat people say love....
yes..u may hate ur parents for being too strict...im jealous of u....
i say that i love sumone so deep...one big reason would be because that person have showed me wat care and love is all about..being ordered around..being cared..she used to..

doing all the stupid stunts that i used to do..attracting people's attention..maybe thats wat i longed for..wat i needed..

this is wat i should say...i need sumone..sumone to care for me..i miss u mum...i miss u dad..and i will miss U..ur care..ur attention..

*someone please..

2005-08-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

GAME OVER...
i lost all the credits....
done with it....

2005-08-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

yes! im blogging again...
i juz heard from junkwang that ms leung, a maris teacher, had left us juz like that...
to think she used to relieve my class..yes..the notorious 4G...the lively dorothy from chronicles III wizard of oz...the patient ms leung in skul...
sigh..may u be happy where ever u are...

never knew my blog would inspire sumone..sumone like junkwang..
havent met each other for quite long already..he had been one of the bestest frens i've had in mshs...and guess wat.. for the 1st time in my whole life..im being idolised...my cousin told his mum that he wants to grow up to be like me??for a moment i thought..im not that great?why would he wan to be like me??im lazy..i play all the time..and never get good results...my parents are disappointed in me..blah blah...why would he wan to be like me...and lead my kind of lifestyle??..

chester...dun follow me...im bad...juz be urself!

2005-08-02T20:00:00.000+08:00

all i could do...
was to stand at one corner..watching..
hide behind a wall..peeping..
blend into the crowd..juz to take a glance..
how i wish i could..

2005-08-02T16:38:00.000+08:00

fantasy brought about dwelling tear...
take a deep breath..
"mischievous needle!!
please stop toying with the heart"

2005-08-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder...
why has it changed so much?
counterfeited deeds?

or issit me?
guess i juz couldnt see..
*blood of a bitch

2005-08-02T01:14:00.000+08:00

gonna go sleep soon...now's 2nd of august already...
happy birthday xueyi...
am now studying for 2ml EC...i think im gonna die...i dun understand anything bout it...wahaha...

*happy happy..gd nites..

2005-07-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

cry whenever ure sad...
i would lend u my shoulder...
for i know the one who loves, will never hurt....

2005-07-31T17:55:00.000+08:00

first met on the 2nd of june...
it was the 1st ever PD lesson for everyone...was a mixed class...i was late that day...
then we played some game during the class...lucky me..i got to sit near her...that was the 1st time i talked to her...blahblah..yes it was fate....
the next PD lesson was awesome...and i was lucky again...there was the list of the student's name and email on the teacher's table...yea..so i took the 1st step..i stole her email...yeap...dun kill me...
really wish i could turn back time...sweet memories**
59th day..and still couting

2005-07-31T01:44:00.000+08:00

wat makes me wake up so early on saturday morning...argh..
Vball training..dammit...haha...i woke up at like 9.40 when i have to reach skul by 10...woohoo..im so so late...anw it rained halfway so didnt really get to touch the ball much...we were having physical training instead..DAMMIT...haha..
im aching all over now...guess i will need to stay on my bed for 2ml...haha...u know wat i mean..and YEAH!!that means i can be the so called "king" for the day...wahaha..dreams*
i havent done much revision!!!i will be dead.........................................................

*coming real soon....020805

2005-07-30T01:04:00.000+08:00

yeap..today's the so called friesday(friday?)...
woke up at bout 12...then aslany smsed me...ask me go skul study...so asked him to wait for awhile then we go 2gether la...so yea..
reached skul at bout 2....then go library find yiren and joshua...suppose to go there study...but i didnt study much...so sorry if i disturbed u guys..i was really damn noisy...talked too much...
went for training later...didnt do as well 2dae...i sucked...
its been a week since i seen her...didnt really have chance to meet her...so so unlucky...yes i miss u very much...enjoy ur weekend..=)

2005-07-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

and another day is wasted...
sigh..why must the fever come today..why not 2ml why not yesterday why not dun come at all!!
was supposed to go study...at woodlands??
basically i slept trhu almost the whole day..didnt really hav much energy to climb out of my bed...so by the time i wake up, its almost 8pm...felt so much better then...yea shall end it here..
*why..

2005-07-28T02:11:00.000+08:00

take a walk in my shoe...

2005-07-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

i tried..
i tried to think otherwise..
i tried to brush off..
i tried to search for alternatives..
i just couldnt..

2005-07-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

i was brought into a game...
a game that ive never played before..
i was a stranger to it..
never knew wat it would become..
i am now stuck in the game..
stuck because i am addicted..
i feel so lonely..
lonely as ppl start to quit the game with victory..
i still canot find the way out..

im afraid...
afraid that i might lose....

wednesday..

2005-07-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

lonely...
for a moment i thought i didnt have much frens...
for watever they've done to me...i nvr take it to the heart..
for wat they've done to me...im really thankful...
these group of people have made my life brighter than ever....THANKYOU..
but for a moment i thought..........
i didnt really have wat i really need.....

2daes wednesday..common tests are coming...didnt really have the mood to prepare for it...but anw i studied 1009 and didnt understand a single bit..damn it...
was reading my chat histories...it really wasnt how it used to be anymore...
have really lost contact with alot of ppl..and i guess im different in a way...ppl dun really like to talk to me anymore...

issit because im thinking too much..or am i really that bad..sigh..
*hope for the better

2005-07-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

this is wat i got from frenster...
Today's Forecast
You aren't your usual gentle self...blah blah..dun nid care bout the others..
haha..so god damn true...im like feelig so different 2dae..the way i talk, the way i do my thing...im so impatient 2dae....haha...watever..

reached skul at bout 10 plus...didnt knw where the 1010 class was held so called peeps to ask...got an answer at bout 10.20.....late by 1hr 20 mins...wahaha...the class was so empty...she was tired and didnt go to skul...sadness...didnt really listen to the lesson..hehe =x.....erm..then went to eat then went home..dun really hav much to say bout 2dae...shld i say or shld i not..
i miss u lotss.........wahhaa..=x

2005-07-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

havent blogged for the past few days...so gonna update wat ive been doing....
parents came on friday morning...didnt go fetch them cos im at skul..had a long day at skul...boring..then went for vball training..lots of ppl nvr go for the training that day...my gang was left with edmund jimmy and me...was alrite tho...guess wat..im the 1st one from vball club to join the skul team's training..WAY COOL....hoorayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.......
went to orchard to find my parents after training..stayed at orchard parade hotel...dunno wat hotel...haha...then realised my phone batt is very low...sadness...canot call canot sms...argh..can die...
saturday was tiring...followed my parents to see houses..think they're buying them for investment...not very sure tho...then went on to taka to do some shopping...didnt buy anything cos it was my mum's shopping day..not mine...=x..walk and walk...till VERY tired..still canot sms...didnt bring charger to hotel...argh...
sunday was better...reached home at about 12 noon...must charge my phone!!haha..but was going to far east plaza do MY shopping..wahaha..so borrowed a phone from my cousin...the batt didnt last long either...talked to her on the phone for a while then gone...that pair of jeans is GONE!!!!!argh.....SAD SAD...went to suntec to buy more stuffs..MY DAD BOUGHT ANOTHER LAPTOP FOR HIMSELF!!!AND MY MUM BOUGHT A 'O2XDAIIS'!!!!!!!!!omggg...i wan!!i wan!!!haha..my bro is going to buy a new com i think...and all ive got are onli clothes...haha...nvm...missed her so much..
2dae's monday and i was supposed to go skul to do sum maths thing...but went out with my parents in the end...had a small small quarell with my mum juz now..erm...sorry..stupid me..so didnt talk to her much...
was really damn tired these few days...sent my parents off then now im here blogging....learning to use photoshop...editing photos..and waiting...haha..

hope i didnt miss much during this few days...needa do revision soon...i dun think theres much time left for me...will try to work hard!!haha..
hope 2ml will be the day...................................................................

2005-07-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

had a long thursday...but i didnt seem to be tired at all..omy...
haha...she was extraordinarily sweet 2dae...i dunno wat got into me 2dae..but yea...
superstar result was out...GAY IS OUT....HOORAY!!!and LEON IS OUT TOO!!!!!
omg...this is just so great..the school's "info tv" will not hv his freaking face anymore..."vote for leon vote for leon"...has finnally stopped...phew*at last...

found out leon sing songs that i really like...and for god's sake..u suck...dun sing david tao's or leehom's songs anymore...ure just DESTROYING their beautiful songs...

and yeap the great great news is that derrick is in..she would be so so happy...yeap..UR DERRICK IS IN!! my 60 cents didnt go to a waste!!haha....yeap..happy happy..=)..gratz derrick...do ur best!!

2005-07-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

2ade's wednesday...hmm...
got thru the day juz like usual...got to skul late...so sorry i nvr bring my jacket 2dae...its being washed....was dirty...a ciggarate burnt her feet 2dae...*Sigh..dun really have much to write about 2dae...plus plus im feeling so so tired....my brain isnt workingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
help!!!!2ml needa reach skul by 7...will try my best to be early...think i will not be early...haha...i need my beauty sleep...ive eye bags already...awwwwwwww...ugly ugly...=x.........just kidding...

2005-07-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

2dae's tuesday...
woke up quite late so reached skul at bout 8.20......slept thru jack tan's lesson.......
turned around and i saw her...smiles...really cant take it..i was about to faint...haha...the next lesson came fast..it was maths...kinda boring oso...so went to copy hw...after that sleep again...haha...went to sit beside her after maths during th break...she smelled extraordinarily nice...i really like that perfume of hers...wahha...after that was autocad, engineering drawing...slept thru the whole lesson...then lectures ended...
lunch breakk...
had a lunch...joshua and other live audio members were at the canteen....they were the DJs for the day..lol...any dedication juz tell them..yeap..i made one..for for xueyi...but sadly she wasnt there...hmm..nvm..in the end ajid told her that i made the dedication for her...ur welcome....
skul ended at 1...went to watch fren play pool then went home...was tired...
*loves..

2005-07-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

got back from the camp yesterday at bout plus...i went to bathe and went strait to sleep......hahaha...was so god damn tired..so now then got time to blog..hehe..

the 1st day............
onli woke up at 7.30..will surely be late if i dun take a cab to skul...so i did take a cab...
reached skul at 8.02..still late...met lay yin and qiuling outside shopping arcade then went to block E....the 1st day was boring...did lots of introductory games...i hated that the most..it was like so stupid..so i went to take a "leave" form saying that i need to go for lesson from 12 to 3.30...went to have 1012 lesson till 2 plus...then went to find her..juz nice she was out of the classroom..so could talk a lil'...haha...she still havent got her voice back then...went to eat then went to wait for her lesson to end...
then went back to the camp..played sum games b4 going off for vball training...went back to camp at about 9....talked a little, then went to watch "saw" f***in gory show...blood and more blood...slept halway thru the show...i tot they were gonna let us rest after the movie..but NO!!
it was like 12 plus and they told us that we gonna have more games...sum very serious game... dun really knw why they took it so seriously...i thought it was piece of cake...they were like putting a test for our mental!!LOL....stupid..in that game, sum ppl are mute, blind or paralysed...im the mute one..able-bodied but canot talk at all....so i had to piggy-back sum paralysed ppl..dammit...i was carrying a 52 kg guy...my leg was like wobbly and couldnt stand properly...scared i fall then hurt myself and the other guy..i ended the game earlier than the others becos i was kidnapped....i dunno why they do this but i was lucky to be kidnapped..no nid carry ppl anymore...phew*went back to so called "focus village" to wait for the rest..there were all the other ppl who were kidnapped...playing and having fun...haha..and so did i...went to bathe after debrief..and went to sleep...time was 5 am......

2nd day....
the best day........and tiring
did PT(physical training) for like 1 1/2 hour....tiringg...
after that we got out breakfast.................got a great game after breakfast...."warcraft"!!!!
its a game where u hav to build a stucture, to hold ur flag...and wat the members of the group supposed to do is....protect ur flag and destroy other ppl's flag...WITH water bomb...destroy as in making theirs as wet as possible...had lots of fun then..i was WET...haa..then we had water games...the same old water games...making raft, searching for puzzle pieces in the water...blah blah..then did lots of cheering stuff...shake ur butt blah blah...then the part i hate most....was the performance night...my group didnt really come out with anything...it was like sum lame skit...the whole purpose was to tell the PT trainer that we hated PT alot......i was the "extra" in the skit...lucky didnt get to play the main char...
after the whole performance thing...everyone was like so high...did alot of CHEERING...kallang wave and watso ever...my personal fav is:
ara ketinggi (then ur right hand hold ur fren head) ara ketinggi (left hand hole the other person head)

tinggi tinggi tinggi tinggi tinggi ting! 2x then(while u say, u shake ur butt)
then change...ur hand hold shoulder of ur fren...then shake again...then hip, then knee then feet.....repeating the sequence...niceee......=x

then played sum music...everyone DANCE!!lol..huai li, ben, dennis, shenyong, august, terrence, and me did lots of stupid dance...VERY lame...but was fun...yeap...then was asked to go bathe then go sleep...but i couldnt...so went to ji siao ppl's letter box...ben that roger thing was from me and huai li...dun kill me...=x.....yeap sent to ppl alot of rubbish...like "i love u" and wat so ever...
then went to sleep....

3rd day was alrite...
did PT when everyone was still 1/2 asleep...then played that egg chicken eagle ultraman game...lamee....hated it...cos i ve got no voice to call out for ppl...then got sum amazing race thing...3 peeps from a grp played mind games..4 peeps swam...while the others were the runners...i did the swimming...cos my group didnt have enuff ppl to swim...lost that game anw...after that play sum dunno wat game...where u have to stay within 1.5m away from ur leader...then i didnt..so i was caught...by the police...couldnt continue the game anymore...nvm...i was really tired then...so went back to the " focus village go sleep"hehe..after awhile my teammates came back and bailed me out...paid 1 k to bail me out...waste money..cos i wan to sleep again...last was the cleaning up...didnt really do much stuff cos the place was kinda clean...hehe...then it was time to check my "mailbox"...got a few letters....from danny9the so called same name) 2 joanne s(2 with the same name..) from steph (dun really talk to her) from vivian (my secret pal..idunno her) and ting ting..(my other pal...i dunno her too) and lots from huai li( lots of rubbish).......
went home after that......
miss her sooo badly...i really really cant wait for tommorow to come...its as though we havent met for years...TUESDAY HERE I COME!!!

2005-07-15T00:14:00.000+08:00

another post...after watching the result of jue dui superstar....
silver is in!!!!!!hooray....the GAY is out!!!!HOORAY!!!!
sebastian is out...sadness...
erm..got a 3 days 2 night camp...gonna miss her badly....i canot get to see her 2ml...hp are allowed to be used after dinner...anything?call me at night...ermm..yeap..back on sunday...

I LOVE ICE-CREAM ON MY FACE....=x

2005-07-14T19:51:00.000+08:00

thursday's OVER...sigh..
reached skul at 8.01..haha..went into class juz after the teacher did..tot wshe would be inside already..but nopee..she wasnt..she was late...haha..she looked so cute 2dae...and she lost her voice..
PD was juz as boring...dun really like the teacher...
PD ended at 9...got an hour b4 maths lecture start...went to eat with her and eugene...
hmmm..maths was juz as boring...slept thru the lecture..after maths was 1009...WHICH is juz a boringgg....didnt understand wat lohkk was teaching at all......die................
went to yishun there eat BK with xy and her frenss....SHE BIT ME!!!!!pain pain..very pain...
then we went to play bingo ; the police and murderer game...was knda fun at 1st but everyone got so tired after awhile...had lots of fun...wishes**
spent long long time with her...hated time for being do idiotic...5 hrs juz passed so quickly...dammit..sumone stop the time please!!

2005-07-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

decided to blog again....the previous one was like so short...

hmm..woke up late..reached skul late..
ermm...she was in abad mood 2dae..not sure why..maybe she was not feeling very well at that moment...yeap...nvm..anw...i went to buy her 'strepsils' while on my way back to lecture...didnt dare to go in....haha..so had to wait till the time when they having break then i can go in...

then i wasted my whole afternoon in skul waiting for the leadership camp briefing thing...WTF...it took onli 10 mins...when i waited for like hours...dont really wan to go for the camp now...cos ive to skip the whole of friday's lessons...DIE...the camp starts on friday 8 am...sigh..then i will not be able to see her then....*sigh

2005-07-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

yep..2dae' wednesday...
dun really have much to blog...
wasted my time to stay in skul juz to wait for the camp focus briefing....

*sigh
end it here..

2005-07-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

tuesdays have always been a tiring day...its the 1st day of the week for me to wake up early...awwww.. i couldnt open my eyes this morning...juzz kept lying on my bed, half awake...when suddenly my hp rang................
_____________________

PRIVATE
NUMBER
____________________

guess who was it....this call really made my day...it was xy...
she told me she wasnt going for the 1st lesson which is PCQ....darn boring lesson..
hmm...she told me to check whether anyone signed her attendance for her...that is like the 1st time she called me in early in the morning..arghh..i couldnt go back to sleep..

was very tired...slept thru almost all the lectures...haha...thats why i hate it when lectures end..bcos i will not be able to sleep anymore...=x...hehe...
*shld i or shld i not...........

simple needs

2005-07-11T11:23:00.000+08:00

juz by seeing u, i would be so happy
juz by seeing u smile, i would be flying already
everytime ure joyful, i would be so contented
whenever u sms me, i would be jumping up and down, left and right, around my room
when i get to be with u, i would be hoping that time would slow down a lil bit..

i wish....
i could hold ur hand once again..
i could stay by ur side forever...
i could........

2dae is monday...i guess i dun have the chance to see her...sigh...hoping the day would come...

2005-07-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

backk from my shopping..didnt realy find any extraordinary clothes..LOL.
bought 3 pieces of them..quite simple and plain actually...yeap..juz wanted to add summore things into my cupboard...hoping to buy that pair of jeans in the near future...=)